nfe♥

gambars from vietnam !

2010-06-11T11:37:00.006+08:00

pictures convey a thousand words.i miss vietnam.

it felt awesome letting the past go ,there.

with love ,

nurfatihaeryani.

;i'm glad i made

the right choice.

had an awesome date ,baby.

2010-05-18T13:50:00.005+08:00

hey.

had an awesome date yesterday[[: thanks ,hunny.

~~though i had to wait for you to fetch me.it was worth all the wait .~~

went out to marina barrage and had some form of a picnic there^^ then ,made our way to bugis and walked around for a while till it was about 1630.had an expensive and wonderful day.haha.

rushed home like crazy and almost forgot to give back his stuff that was in my bag.funny shits.rushed like some psycho maniac attempting to reach home in time before 1730 [which i did:D ]

anyhow ,going for tuition later[: gonna have fun there despite all the studying.teehee[:

dahlah ,i'm gone.

ciao.take care ,mundane blog.

with love ,

nurfatihaeryani(S)

;dreams are just

a midnight fantasy♥

cold ,rainy nights.

2010-05-16T19:15:00.003+08:00

hey.

i'm fricken exhausted.was walking around orchard with family like we had nothing better to do and had an eating spree[which was ,btw ,awesome].

ate awesome donuts at ion.wish i could've gotten more.or maybe ,get new clothes.even new shoes.got pissed along the way ,walking.pissed with my tudung ah actually.felt like ripping it off and just walk without it.i mean ,wearing one may be religiously right but not every muslim girl or woman wears it.and ,it just pisses me off that they can wear whatever they want to without having worry about their tudung getting all messed up.its not freaking fair.

going out tomorrow !:DD

ugh ,got to go and get my priorities straight now [:

byee.take care.

with love ,

nurfatihaeryani♥

;when love takes

over♥

exam's over !

2010-05-14T14:14:00.005+08:00

freaking hell.my blog's dead.mundane.

i shall attempt to update as frequently as possible when i do have some time to myself like today:D

my emotions fluctuated like nuts from the starting of sec 3.saddening when you get your heart broken real bad.i swore i would never ever fall in love again but i did[:

anyhow ,slaving my way through maths ,A maths and biology.all three subjects making my hair to fall.finished mid year yesterday[[: ,hoping real bad i didn't fail anything.i'm contemplating over so many things.its not awesome.

andand ,i'm feeling pretty terrible about some stuffs.i want to go out.i don't want to keep listening to you say her name or talk about her.i don't want to die again.i don't want to cry anymore.i don't want my heart broken.i don't want to feel insecure but i can't help it.everytime theres you ,there will always be a third person.i don't want to feel redundant.if you didn't mean anything you say ,might as well let me go then hurt me even more.hmm ,i want all of this problems to be over.

i'm gone now.effing hungry.need food.still waiting for my COOKIE !

byee.takecare.

with love ,
yani♥

;if broken hearts kills ,

i'd need nine lives to spare♥

2010-03-07T16:17:00.002+08:00

blergh.

i feel terrible.and ,i can't go on the laptop as often now.damn homework.too much that my brain is practically melting and dripping out of my ears.

hmm ....speechless.shall be on hiatus once again till i find time to go online.

bye [:

with love ,
yan

;maybe ,we weren't cut out

to fit each other.

yan.

2010-03-01T15:55:00.001+08:00

heyy ,

sorry forthe long hiatus.

been busy.

ciao.

with love,
yan.

;because nobody

understands

pretty little diamond drops[:

2010-01-31T13:36:00.003+08:00

freaking hell.

i just created a twitter account.haha.pathetic me.i'm so bored i can't help myself.

life is getting around ,i guess.getting speechless right now.

byee.

with love ,

yan.yan.yan.yan.yan.yan.yan.yan.

destroyed.

2010-01-29T18:35:00.002+08:00

the only reason why i left was to see if you cared enough to get me back.

too bad it went too far.now ,life is just empty.it feels weird.wake up every morning only to see you.maybe you never realised.but ,you really meant a lot to me.

why is it always my fault ?hmm ,its okayy.life is complicated.i'm just going to be a loner while shutting my feelings away.

thats how it is these days are ,apparently.even when i try to cheer up ,the stupid past gets back into my head ,haunting me.i don't pay attention to anything anymore.because everything i do reminds me of you.hmm ,

bye people.

yan.

i told you ;i'm no supergirl.my heart still have feelings.i always had feelings.don't just think i'm the only one at fault.

i'm no supergirl.

2010-01-27T18:47:00.003+08:00

i just want a normal life when everything was perfect without me shutting my feelings away.

i'm the cause.and now ,me being upset is the impact too.i lost everything.

to . ;happy now ?my fairytale's over.

hmm...i think i should continue on giving up on life.missed out one week of it.

i'm going insane and i can't live alone.stop using my words against me.

well ,i've got to go and study for bio.hope i break my arm tomorrow during training.i don't know why ,but that seems to be the sweetest thing that sounds to me right now.wish me luck.

gonna flunk everything.and i don't even care,

bye.for now ~~[and forever]~~

yan.

yan

2010-01-25T19:28:00.001+08:00

the truth is that i don't really matter.

n.u.r.f.a.t.i.h.a.e.r.y.a.n.i.♥

2010-01-23T18:48:00.004+08:00

hey there,

haven't been on the com for two weeks now.but ,it doesn't matter.a jillion things happened during that two weeks.i admit it was partly my fault.but ,i think i only did that because i was being ignored.don't tell me that you're just going to get on with life when someone so dear to you have been ignoring you for the whole week and does not even realise what he/she had done.fine ,put the blame on me.afterall ,my words are just letters with no meaning.

to . ;maybe the world doesn't only revolve around me.but ,

what right those everybody have to make me feel bad al the time.

yeah ,maybe i over-reacted.but ,without knowing the whole story

,who died and gave you the right to tell me what i'm supposed to do with my life ?

don't get offended but ,i think i have some say in my life too

.if you're pissed ,nobody asked you to get involved.

the drama ended.i'm aware of that.but ,i don't think you realised

.now ,why don't you go out there in the world and

piss someone else off ?

sheesh ,people should really learn how to shut it.

i'm angry.i'm sad.i'm pissed.i'm horrified.i'm confused.i'm guilty.but ,to me.thats life.my life is not like the typical wheel example.my life is not going smoothly at one point and going rough at the other.my life is like the base of a box ,always facing down.when theres a time someone picked the box up off the ground .and when i can see light ,someone else will always take the box away and throw it back on the floor.its like when you finally escaped from a kidnapper ,you get shot just outside the kidnapping place.its upsetting.

life isn't the way i always pictured it to be.

i've learnt the hard way that i'm just a puppet on strings.i can never do things the way i want it to be.someone must always wreck my defining moment.thanks alot lah you guys.

with love ,
yani

;unimportant.

constantly forgotten♥

yanster ;

2010-01-18T21:03:00.002+08:00

sorry ,didn't post for so long.

have been really busy with school and everything.

main point ; Happy Belated Birthday to Mist and Bella !
; Happy Birthday Ibu[:

shes old !haha.but ,shes still awesome.right ?probably not.but ,yeah.have yet to get her a birthday present.haha ,should i get her a lady gaga cd ?or some drama cd.

to people ,
i'm not in the best of moods.watch it people.my emotions are muddled.

again ;happy birthday ibu.
and ,happy belated to my two sayangs[:

with love ,
yani

;i'm bitterhearted ,

don't piss me off

ugh .

2010-01-09T12:55:00.003+08:00

hey.

haven't been on the computer for a week now.

school's a bummer.i miss being in the same class as rizan ,ali ,sham ,hannah and atikah.unfortunately ,my brain has a really small capacity of memory and therefore ,enabling me only to remember the day where we were sitting together ,having fun.

anws ,homeworks are already given.its a lot]':

blahblahblah.blabberblabberblabber.

yesterday could be considered awesome.school was okayy ,got to do experiment in biology.chem was.umm ,chemical ?

stayed back after school for cca display day.well ,i was upstairs with the guys helping them cut the flyers cause ,they helped us[netball] too.

then ,went down and sat withthe netball girls.

went out to macs with beelaaa and hannah.go back to school.didn't do much but practice shooting.

played half court with the girls a while.went out with ibu and ayah.ate ,

moving on ,went home.

my blood clot on my toe bled.yes ,beelaaa.it did.

slept.

got to get ready for tuition.

bye,

take care.

with love ,
yani.

2010.

2010-01-02T17:16:00.003+08:00

i can't get my head around the fact thats its already 2010.i feel like the only person still stuck in the last decade.i can't let 2009 go ,as much as i want to.it feels like letting go of someone so close to me.it feels like ripping my soul away from my body.
at the same time ,i can't believe school is starting soon.i'm finally going to see haziq.haven't seen him since school ended ,i guess.will see all and me with my wretched hair cut.i chopped off my ponytail.frigging short.

its 2010.wow.maybe this year ,i'll grow taller.

and yes ,i was texting beelaaa last night.we were bitching about someone and the both of us feel its really unfair about the decision made.my brain's all mushed up and school haven't even started yet.my right eye's been twitchng from 12.hope its not a bad sign.

and ,yeah.b ,i'm sorry about last night,i exaggerated a little too much and got my heart broken.everything's my fault.i'm aware of that.and ,i'm sorry.i admit.

2010 ,
i can't wait for whats coming up this year.just stop being so cruel to me and let things go my way ,for once.i don't wish to get my heart broken again.i don't wish to pick up all the broken pieces and try to mend it although i know it will take a long time to do so.2010 ,i hope you'll be a better year than 2009.i hope i'll make it through this year.
2010 ,let me live up to my personality.

anyhow ,nazri and nadia are back.we're once again in the tuition class.

don't expect much from me cause i'm not in my best moods lately.i've been really cranky and i will never turn out the other way round.

once cranky ,always cranky.hah !

well,i guess i poured my heart out enough.

good luck for the reopening of school.

take care lovelies.

with love ,
yani.

my christmas eve.

2009-12-28T19:52:00.006+08:00

Simon ,my favourite chipmunk.

Nur Fatin Eryani ,kakak.

Isa Abdul Rahman ,nephew /new school mate.

Nur Filza Eryani ,adik /new school mate.

candid [?]

officially candid[!]

whats a chit ?

iced lemon tea [:

my dinner.[before]

my dinner.[after]

didn't have enough time to take

a pic of my ice cream.too

yummy-licious !

don't be fooled people.i watched avatar ,not the chipmunks.heh.

anws ,the pictures probably explained everything.

with love ,

me.

hey there.

2009-12-26T18:35:00.001+08:00

beelaaa 's BACK !!!!

and someone said that dreams are just lies.what if it came true ?it almost did.

i 've died.

YANI !hees:D

nabila bte abdul aziz alkaff.

2009-12-22T12:48:00.004+08:00

i miss beelaaa.
i still miss beelaaa.
no matter what you say ,
i still miss beelaaa.

i can't wait for her to come back.

eventhough she's coming back soon ,

i miss her.

; i've got to tell you ,theres no one that can replace beelaaa.i miss her burps.i miss her clumsiness of falling down although we're walking on even ground.i miss her shouting in my ear ,asking me to move out of the way.i miss her.

okayy ,

2009-12-18T13:55:00.002+08:00

seeing that i haven't been going to training for two days straight ,coach seems to be ignoring me in her own way.

whatever.

i won't make it next week either.stupid tuition gets in the way of everything.

not blogging much today,

bye.

with love ,
yani.

pfft.

2009-12-14T16:15:00.002+08:00

you didn't mean to love me back ,but i know you did.

ain't it wonderful how love works ?a friend once told me that without friendship ,love will never work.its awesome.except for the fact that when things go the slightest bit wrong ,you feel insecure.

i know i'm blogging the second time today ,but thats because i cant do my homework.its hard.

theres only 1[one] thing

,2[to] do

,3[three] words

,4[for] you.

iloveyou.

the ultimate.

2009-12-14T13:00:00.004+08:00

okayy ,i went to watch new moon yesterday with my sisters at vivo.

for someone who doesn't even like vampire story books ,i enjoyed it.

blog later.eat first.wait.

right ,done.

as i was saying ,i enjoyed new moon.althoughit was kind of draggy.taylor was ,hawt.

blahblah ,i got new sport shoes for school and netball and new fbts that actually match the shoes.everything is almost teal [:

i have got a maths homework sent to me through email that have to be done by tomorrow.and ,i just read it just now.bummer.i'll need to rush like hell.this kind of suck.

i am just going to do the work and have fun doing matrices.

bye,

with love ,
yani

hey ,

2009-12-12T18:59:00.003+08:00

want to hear my little secret ?

no one cares anymore.whatever i say will only be a matter of words.its not excactly fair.but ,thats life.

unfortunately.

with love ,

yani

i'm in love.and that feeling's irreplaceable.

beelaaa ,i dreamt of brownie last night.it was talking to me -.- "

i miss you beelaaa.come back soon.cause ,i know you want to.hehs.

crap.

2009-12-03T15:53:00.004+08:00

remember this beelaaa ?

hey,

my books for next year just got delivered to my place.beelaaa was right.they do look scary.especially the science books.

anws ,i feel kinda bad for missing the friendly today just because of the books.but ,my cousin specifically had them to be sent to me ;Nur Fatiha Eryani.had to sign my name on this paper to make sure that i received it.

hope we won.as far as i remember ,we are short beyond compare.except for some of course.

yeah ,don't feel like blogging today but got myself to put my hands on the keyboard and write some random shit here.pfft,

sorry for not making sense.if beelaaa were here ,she would say i make dollars.

i miss her]':

i can't wait to see her.and when i do ,i'm going to hug her like theres no tomorrow.

i miss you beelaaa.really.

byee.

with love ,

yani

;thanks for being

the best i never

had

oh right ,

2009-12-02T10:30:00.002+08:00

hey ,

got to let you people know that i've not been a good girl lately and have been throwing tantrums as and when i like.but its not my fault.

lets see what happened from last friday.

28november.

;i think i went out with family.ate breakfast at woodlands.walked around.don't really remember how we reached orchard central.but ,yeah.the toilets there were awesome and huge.but ,kinda dark.wait ,why am i talking about the toilet at orchard central ?

anyhow ,we went to the beach a little later on and had some form of fun walking from one end of east coast to the other -.-"

walked ,walked.reached home.did stuffs.

slept.

29november.

;i have completely no idea what i did on this particular date.so ,lets just say i lost my life.not literally.

30november.

;sat at home.watched tv the whole day.practically rotting after 'losing life ' the day before.

1decmber.

;this ,i remember clearly.

woke up at 530 am and bathed.went out at 630 with ibu ,but for different reasons.me ,to go pasir ris.ibu ,to buy breakfast before going to work.anws ,got on 21 at 645 and bused off to pasir ris while texting atikah.

reached pasir ris interchange at 7 and walked towards the mrt station to wait for atikah.saw miss lim waiting.waited with her.saw lulu.went to 711 to buy 1.5 water bottle.went out ,wait for atikah.miss lim gone.17-ed to pasir ris crest and warmed up.watched the others play.umpired the second quarter and got baked in the fire-y ball of fire in the sky.saw florence sprain her ankle and freda cry.coach still had the cheek to ask freda what was wrong although she was the one that caused it.

juniors' turn to play.had to play GA with adilla in the second quarter.was pissed off with the bloody GD.but did anybody care ?no.who am i right ?some stranger in this bloody world.that sucked.then ,played GA with sabrinasnior in the B divisions game.changed.blahblah.went to loyang point.more of walked.atikah and nurina were fighting all the way there because atikah didn't like walking and nurina said that the way to ,loyang point wasn't that far.padahal padahal.

atikah started blaming pasir ris and nurina on everything.awesome fight between the two of them.

went to buy some stuff at the supermarket there.went into the bus.and ,SENTOSA !

kayy ,shall just state the main points that happened.lunch making contest ,charades ,beach football /netball ,burying amirahsenior ,pictures ,regretted calling ,felt dead ,walked to bus for us to go vivo.went to the rooftop ,gave up our gifts ,ate ,"show and tell " [i used mrbump] ,then went inside cause of lightning ,continued show and tell.went down ,bused back to tpss.waited for dad.went home.

awesome day.too bad beelaaa and hannah weren't there.would have been perfect.

anyhow ,i think the post is long enough.pictures shall be uploaded if i have the time.

byee.

with love ,

yani

;i never realised

our cold shoulders.

birthday wish for the birthday girl.farewell to my burper.

2009-11-27T13:35:00.002+08:00

heyy[:

first ;HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH !you're like ,finally fourteen and i love you soo much.thanks for being the awesomest ,rockstar",
enjoy your wonderful birthday and just hope that you can get along with A.hehs.

second ;Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to muslims out there.

third ;BEELAAA !!!!don't go.its happening way to fast.lets hope the trip is faster.then ,i'll meet you earlier.i really wanted you to go to sentosa next week.why beelaaa ?why ?

fourth ;i'm stumped.i turned fourteen 2 days ago.i got a huge dumbo to hug at night for my birthday.thanks sayang[:

byee people ,

got to crash the computer screen and cut up all the wires in the stupid machine.its wrecking the posts.i can barely do anything to this post.

crap right ?

with love ,
yani

blahh.

2009-11-24T11:36:00.002+08:00

is something wrong with feeling like everything's gone.and that ,whatever you do won't bring the same happiness to my face the way it did before.

i feel like crap.i feel like i've been living in a cave and just realised how wonderful but prjudiced the world have become.

i haven't grown.

hey ,

2009-11-24T11:09:00.003+08:00

don't really feel like blogging.computer and the internet is crapping like shit.

tomorrow's my birthday.pardon me if the post has tiny words.i can't really edit anything.computer sucks.

remind me ,save money to buy own laptop.thanks.

oh ,ya.don't forget to wish me ;happy birthday.hah.just kidding.i'm tired lah.

gotta pack my bag for training.

byee,

with lvoe ,
yani

heh ,

2009-11-20T15:13:00.002+08:00

its the 20th of november.just five more days till i'm finally fourteen.seven till hannah's♥

i finally got my sorry butt to change the blogskin.i'm just not in the mood to blog these days.i wake up everyday with a backache adn only realise that i'm stuck at home unless i have netball.which ,i did not go to yesterday.one ,because my stomach hurt a lot.second ,i didn't dare go out of the house with yesterday's thunderstorm.third ,my mum didn't let me go out.

anws ,i guess i should end this post since i am blank-ed out and my brain's not helping in any way possible to make me feel better.

i need to go eat to suport my emotions.i shall go find chocolate somewhere and eat till i'm happy.lets hope i won't grow fat.

someone ,please make my suffering go away.make me happy and tall.i feel unachieved as a short person.i am tired of begging.i guess thats all.

byeee.

with love ,

yani

;don't you just ,

love my name♥

soon ,sayang

2009-11-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

hey,

not in the mood to post .

so yeah.

bye

yani -

the best days of your life

2009-11-17T09:06:00.002+08:00

morning people[:

am feeling kind of tired today ,was out the whole of yesterday and came back home poofed.got advanced birthday present of nine days which are very pretty shoes from BEELAAA♥ ;thank you beelaaa[:

funny day out yesterday[:

met hannah at tampines mrt station at 11.trained all the way to eunos and waiteed for beelaaa and ikaaa for almost half and hour because we reached there at 1116.went to 711 for a while to get a light snack and sat down staring at people.hah !finally ,they came.then ,walked all the way to bagus for lunch.had a lot of laughs just eating in bagus.funny how the smallest details makes a huge smile appear on one's face.

anws ,then went on and walked all the way back to beelaaa's place.of course ,taking pictures on the way.mostly ,pictures of beelaaa and ikaaa arguing.haha !it was entertaining.

moving on -went to the dvd rental shop where we rented Notebook and House Bunny.then ,went to the shop that sells food and bought some snacks:D

walked to beelaaa's place and yeah loads of thing happened.went up to beelaaa's room.tripping on the stairs on the way up.haha.watched p.s. ;i love you.halfway through ,the show got a little boring.so ,watched house bunny intead.we were almost quiet throughout the whole show until this part ;"your eyes are the nipples of your face"

burst out laughing our asses off when she said that.funny show.it was pathetic.haha.still can't forget the part where she was at the manhole.

apparently ,the show wasn't as bimbo as we thought it would be.it was a nice show.just ,very vulgar.

okayy.after the show ,rushed back home with hannah and reached home about 15 minutes late.was ,running home.in a dress.heh.

and watched tv ,slept ,woke up ,did stuff ,here i am .

byee, !got to pack my bag for netball.

pictures shall be on beelaaa's blog ,i guess.since its all in her camera.

with love,

yani

lalalalalala

2009-11-13T13:22:00.003+08:00

i am utterly speechless.

i am bored.i want to go out.i want to go out with my other three sweethearts.i don't want to wait for monday.i mean ,i don't even know if i can even go.hopefully can lah.

anws ,i overslept just now.woke up really late -9.30 am.thats late.i was supposed to wake up at 8.30 but yeah ,so much for waking up early huh ?kakak's fault ;she made me stay up to plait her hair into mini little braids ;for nothing -.- "

should just rot myself at home.ayah just went out ,solat then work.ibu ,coming back from work at 5.30.kakak ,went out with friends ,swimming[no fair].and adik ,she has her graduation night to go to later on int he afternoon.me ?i'm stuck alone at home doing everybody's chores.by myself.not fair.

i should just forget it.

bye ,

with love ,

a very upset yani

;rawr.be warned

,i'm doubting you

i'll never forget that we were meant to be

2009-11-11T13:49:00.002+08:00

hey[:

apparently ,i feel happy despite my aching thighs.had training yesterday in the afternoon at school !has been an infinity since we last did have training in school.it was awesome.except for the part when my hunger pangs came and attacked the shit out of me during training.

i am going to be fourteen[:and tomorrow is the 12th[winkwink]

wrote something in the middle of the night for that special someone who is not in the same class as me anymore.but ,i don't think it would be appropriate to the people who is not that special person.so ,yeah.hees:D

i miss school.i don't know why.i want to go out.want to buy stuffs.

got to go and try to rub away the big stupid grin off my face.hehe.

don't spoil it.

byeee.take care.

with love ,

yani

nur wangi eryani ?

2009-11-07T14:00:00.003+08:00

hey.

i've decided.i'm not as important as i thought i would be.i am just someone who passed by your life and wouldn't even make a difference if i weren't there.i am like that little spider at the corner of the room that nobody bothers to kill.i feel sad.my sayang[s] not in same class anymore.noody to accompany me during recess.nobody to sit with during days when there's extra class and beelaaa's sitting far away.nobody to share the same stoopid story on the blunders that teachers do in class.namely ,that geography teacher.i forgot his name.its not mr kenny tan.its not mr sim.yeah ,the one in between.i feel like dying.i feel lost.i don't want it this way.

bummer.i suck.

with love ,

yani

class allocation.

2009-11-06T11:49:00.001+08:00

i'm in 3e2.

emerald.no more amethyst.no more 2e1.no more chaos.

with love ,
yani

call me pretty

2009-11-04T10:14:00.003+08:00

hey !

its approximately 21 more days to my bithday !weeee:D

had training yesterday which wasn't such a bummer cause i had some fun[:

finally get to play court game.haha.was GA or according to florence ;gaga.had a standing ovation every time i scored basically because they were all standing up in the court and applauding for me.maybe because my defenders were tall people and i could still shoot.haha !yayy me:D

afterwards ,coach said we could choose which position we wanted to play in the last quarter.unfortunately ,beelaaa and ika was to lazy to play center with amirahsenior.so ,i was chasing her all over the court apart from florence.i could have died.but ,i lived !and had truckloads of fun[:

then ,me ,florence and hannah went to the CC first to change.miraculously ,had loads of laughs in the toilet too.haha !

yeah ,we separated in the end.reached home at 7 but didn't get scolded.

well ,i have got to do STUFFS.

bye people.

with love ,

yani !

i miss you already.

2009-11-02T13:00:00.005+08:00

hey[:

i forgot to say this yesterday but yeah i just remembered it just now.its november:D

my birthday is coming real soon [:can't wait.but i can't help feeling kind of sad as well.parents working on my birthday.kakak would probably be busy doing the things she do and my adik ,lets not even go there.bummer ,right ?

i guess i'll be spending my birthday like last year where the only thing i did the whole day was clean the house because nobody wanted to help me with anything.and ,of course went out for a while.but that was insignificant.i'm tired.tired of waiting for someone who i know will never be there to turn up for my birthday.

the day is wonderful today and i am rotting myself to bits at home.i want to go out.i want to swim.i want to rollerblade.i want to cycle.i want to swing.i want to watch life go by sitting on a bench at the beach with someone i love.i want someone to bring me out.it doesn't matter how you take me out.i don't even care if you have to abduct me or kidnap me.i just want to enjoy the day and lie life how i want it to be.

will you take me out and dance with me ?i want to.

i miss my sayang[s].i love you.

with love ,

yani

; if i didn't say i

love you too ,who will ?

booyah.

2009-11-01T18:09:00.003+08:00

; just to let you know ,i took that picture myself :D

i am still in express.alhamdulillah.i am moving on to sec three.hopefully i can make it.i can't wait for the chalet.i'll miss everyone.

those sunsets that brought me to your eyes shall never be forgotten.those annoying times we had being childish shall never be replaced.and those times that were stated as 'fights' were only quarrels with actions.

with love ,

yani

alwani stupid bitch

2009-10-30T15:36:00.003+08:00

hey !

okayy ,got this very sort of fat girl or lets say minah who is bloody trying to piss me off.she was my adik's ''best friend'' and she freaking hell called me a minah tudung.can someone give me a gun or a revolver for my birthday so that i can shoot her down ?she freaking hell doesn't know her limits seyy.

i am bloody pissed off.i am going to kill that bitch that threatened my adik.i am not going to accept that kind of person in my adik's circle of friends.i knew she wasn't going to be a decent person when my adik told me stories about her.she looks like a freaking minah and she smokes for crying out loud !i mean she's only primary 6.wtf.w.t.f.

i did too but at least i realised my mistakes hanging out with those people and passed my subjects and made my parents proud.this bloody girl doesn't even get a disinction for any of her subjects.

to the people that are offended by this post ,get lost lah.i'm trying to be a nice sister and stand up for my adik's rights in school.oh god ,how i wished mr hafiz was in that school and could like expel her or something.i don't think my adik deserved all of this trying to be a good friend.

byee,

-yani .

i want to be with you♥

2009-10-28T15:58:00.003+08:00

heyy.

my feet are hurting ,my throat feels like someone just threw a burning match into it.

i am such a troublesome person.i know ,and i'm not proud of it.had the wonderfullest day ever today[:

went to science centre to go for the imax theatre thing and for the body world exhibition.had a terrible terrible headache at the theatre because of the moving ,twisting picture thing that went all the way to the ceiling.so ,yeah.was looking up for a long time.then ,went out and saw this huge dodo bird looking like thing with some kind of elephant ears outside the door.i could have sworn i would have screamed if it was not for my throat infection.ran far away from it and camwhored with the others[:

then ,went to the bodyworld exhibition thing and was walking around the place like a crazy person linkng arms with beelaaa.had a dramatic meeting with aliyah there and apparently shocked beelaaa and sham.haha !miss her so much.she still looks like rilla melati and she still is taller than me.

walked around some more because i didn't want to go out yet seeing that there was still more than 1 hour for us to walk aroud until meeting time.

so ,left the place around ten minutes after walking around the whole place and went outside where i met aliyah again and took a picture for old times sake.

the next few parts is my favourite for the day[: went around the science centre with sham and beelaaa[and mist and rasyid and ali who got lost later].went to the eco garden thing and went down the slide instead of taking the stairs.haha.went to the control room and went inside the 'news casting' room[:

afterwards ,beelaaa insisted that we go into the place where there was a lot of mice and hissing cockroaches.ran out and looked at the chicks instead.took a lot of pictures through out all of those things.unfortunately ,i can't really post the pictures cause its in beelaaa's camera.

me and beelaaa went inside this thing that looks like a huge hamster cage and really made me feel like a hamster.went out and into the sound room.super cool !was screaming into the echo tunnel and went to this thing that apparently changed the speed of your voice.sham took the photos while beelaaa and me talked to each other and laughed our ass off.pathetic seyy.

then ,blah blah blah.camwhored some more.went to meet class.camwhored with clas.went back.

basically the whole day was about the three of us -beelaaa ,sham and myself[:

got to go now.

byee.take care loves.

with love ,

yani♥

great.

2009-10-26T10:44:00.002+08:00

hey-ohh.

i am -

;destroyed

;destructed

;demolished

;crushed

;sliced

;diced

;chopped

;dead

;alive

;crapped

;yours♥

i am stuck at home.i am waiting for my one month more birthday.i am waiting for the day when i get to officially call you mine.

with love ,

yani

heyy !

2009-10-20T15:06:00.002+08:00

i'm a terribly confused person.

wanted to change my blogskin but couldn't decide on which one to choose.which was pathetic.

anyhow ,i changed my phone♥ !and unfortunately ,my number too.if any of you wants it ,ask from me.

exams' over !!!finally.my art sucked.didn't do the final design thing and yeah.i'm going to fail everything.

oh ,ya.i fell down yesterday and got this huge ,ugly ,colourful bruise on my left knee cause i smashed it on the stairs.in case you're wondering ,yes i did fall down the stairs,going up ,amazingly.

kayy ,whatever.

i am super speechless and i love my sayang[s]♥

muacks !

xoxo.

byee ,

with love ,

fat-tee-haa♥

;i swear

,i love you♥

smiling as per normal.

2009-10-18T12:47:00.004+08:00

;i know i look sucky.didn't ask you to look at it in the first place.too bad.

you're my -
;sweetheart♥
;sugar pie♥
;baby♥
;sayang♥
;only♥
;darling♥
;hunny♥
;life♥
;soul♥
;heart♥
;everything♥

i miss my sayang[s] so badly and i don't know what to do.i really can't wait till i get to meet you.i'm dying of loneliness and i haven't done my art.i'm dead.i need you.

with love ,
yani

boo !

2009-10-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

hees:D

almost slacking at home.feeling super happy because the art paper is the last paper and its next tuesday[:

might be watching a movie next thursday with filza and isa.notice the word MIGHT.

so ,yeah.i am extremely speechless today so i hope you guys have the most kick-ass day of your life[:

and to all hindus ,happy deepavali[:

haha.

bye people.bye.

with love ,

yani

i'm absolutely

in love♥ ;

heees ,

2009-10-14T16:08:00.002+08:00

heyy ,

yeah !tomorrow second-last paper [:

but ,its maths.

anyways ,adik finished her PSLE and is slacking her remaining of the year away starting yesterday.

went to e!hub to meet adik and ibu because i forgot my keys and there was no way i could go home.then ,ate lunch and went to the arcade.not me of course.i was in my school uniform.anws ,i bought a new shirt/dress thingy[: hehe.

then ,met my nephew isa who skips like a fairy princess.[all those people wondering ,he's not gay.]

then ,ate some more.but this time it was me ,isa ,my sister ,my mum and my cousin whom i call mummy[: we had a huge sushi buffet !:D ate 37 plates of sushi along with our udon and our moshi thing.ate 8 plates in only the first five minutes.nice right ?

then ,we went home.

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

Hayyysuuup . :p

2009-10-12T21:00:00.003+08:00

And its not Yani.
Shamdayadayada .

Happy Anni NurFatiha Eryani !!
♥
Lastttt loooooong ! :B
Hope you stay happy always. Wish you goodluck on your exams. All the Best ! Reach high , cause girl, i know you can do it :) .
Maaay your wishes and dreams come true. May everything go the way * its * planned (:
Always there for you , remember that :D . Anywayssss , lets just hoppppe and praaaay for the best out of everything. Things happens for a reason :p !

,
susu . haha.

sorry ,

2009-10-08T17:50:00.004+08:00

okayy ,this is for the people whose feelings have been hurt by the previous post.

shall not mention names because its rude.i guess.

i know that the last post was kind of insulting.but ,those were my feelings and this is my blog.i can actually choose what to write in it.yeah ,i didn't ask anyone to take it to heart.i know ,i said spammers shan't be entertained but when it comes to personal matters ,forget that line.

didn't expect anyone to get hurt.just wanted someone to hear me out.i may not mean a thing to some of the people out there but what about the people who would actually understand what i said ?what about the people who actually knew the full story.

stop jumping to conclusions.for all you know ,you are wrong.listen to the whole story and find the root of the problem.not just act like you know everything thats happening in the world.yeah ,i may have hurt your feelings.but note the sorry at the bottom of the post that you might not even realise is there and blame me without any proof.your feelings aren't the only one that matter.i have feelings too.don't like me ,go to another blog.this is my blog.my say.

i actually have a right in it in case you don't know.yeah ,

just wanted someone to hear me out.didn't expect anyone to take it to heart.sorry that you're too emotional.don't treat the world like your own.remember the other people that live in it ?yeah ,they have feelings too.speak for yourself.what you said might have hurt me too.

think about it.

i cant help myself.

2009-10-06T17:06:00.004+08:00

hey .

feeling kind of blue.had school as per normal.then ,went home and felt sad.

i feel like everyone lies to me.i'm beginning not to trust ANYONE

i know ,it suck.i have that insecure feeling in me that i cant help but to 'unleash'.i have that funny feeling in my gut that tells me to severe all relationships.i have the funny feeling in my head that tells me to question all the people that i don't trust.i know its rude.and ,it won't make things any better.

forget it.i just want to sit in a quiet room and mourn.not that anybody died or anything but i feel that i've lost my mind.i feel that everything i have stood for took a kinfe and stabbed me at the back.i feel untrusted.i know crying while writing this post will not help my situation because nobody will know that i did.but now ,you do.i did.

i want to know whats it like to be a small kid when everything was a mystery but it did not matter to me.i want to live through my days with a million questions yearning to be asked but i still have that silly smile on my face while playing some kids' game.i want to feel the adrenaline rush of hide and seek and catching.

i miss it all.

hope you guys didn't mind me ranting all those nonsense.just had to let it out.i was hurt too.~~i'm not your ragdoll.~~

byee.

with love ,

yani

i dont lie

2009-10-06T11:20:00.001+08:00

boo !

currently in the computer lab blogging after doing a survey for school.

hees[:

byee.

with love ,
yani

lets see ,

2009-10-05T16:52:00.004+08:00

hey.

today was boring.had exam.malay and english paper 1.suck at compositon.both langugage.

did something about family importance for malay and conservation for english.

practically made a speech on the importance of conserving the environment and the consequences of not taking care of mother nature.whatever.

i'm tired.need to sleep.

byee.

with love ,

yani

obsessed ;sunday morning[:

2009-10-03T17:26:00.004+08:00

felt like doing this today.kind of bored.no phone.

sunday morning ;

sunday morning rain is falling

steal some covers ,share some skin

and clouds are shrouding us

in moments unforgettable

you twist to fit the mould

that i am in

but things just get so crazy ,

living life gets hard to do

and i would gladly hit the road ,

get up and go if i knew

that someday it might lead me

back to you

that someday it might lead me

back to you ,oh

that may be all i need

in darkness she is all i see

come and rest your bones with me

i'm driving slow on

sunday morning

and i never want to leave ,yeah

my fingers trace your

every outline ,yeah

paint a picture with my hands

and back and forth we sway

like branches in a storm

change of weather ,still

together ,when it ends ,oh

that may be all i need

in darkness she is all i see

come and rest your bones with me

i'm driving slow on

sunday morning

and i never want to leave

[instrumental]

but things just gets so crazy ,

living life gets hard to do

and sunday morning rain is falling

and i'm calling out to you

singing someday it will bring me

back to you ,yeah

find a way to get myself back home to you

and you may not know

that may be all i need

in darkness she is all i see

and now come rest your bones with me

driving slow ,driving slow

now yeah ,yeah ,oh yeah ,yeah

there's a flower in your hair

and i'm a flower in your hair

oh yeah

i love the song.somehow obsessed.crapped by what happened.parents always pick on second children.not fair.shoot me.

with love ,

yani

the wind very angin ;

2009-09-30T17:31:00.004+08:00

boo !

sorry for not updating.have been busy with STUFFS ,mainly studying for exams.

haven't finished my art prep work which is supposed to be done until layout.but ,yeah.i really am lazy to do so.

crap ,have to eat out -.-"

bye people ,bye]:

i'm gonna cry.just logged on.stupid.

jalaning raya this friday !!!!",

with love ,

yeahni.yeah me.yani.

;i wished that everybody in the world was green

2009-09-22T18:20:00.006+08:00

;yeah ,i'm the one with the huge smile plastered across my face[:

;i think that was the first day

;my sweetheart♥

;i'm in orange[:

;my dad and nephew[:

heyy ,

kayy ,promised you people that i'd upload the raya pictures.thats not all but i lazy ah want to upload all.too much.whole family camwhored for the first two days[:

thats it.

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

;hees[:

2009-09-19T15:49:00.004+08:00

hey",

first off ,sorry for not updating this blog of mine.have been real busy cleaning up the house for the upcoming raya.

secondly.to all muslim peeps out there ,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin[:

now ,after a long day of cleaning up the house and cooking i finally get to update this blog.

have been a really stressing week due to all the homework and cleaning and stuffs that i shall not mention.just have to mention something though ,if things happened naturally ,why make a big fuss about it ?i mean ,whats the point ?as hard as we try to let you fit in ,we get ignored just the same.maybe ,misunderstandings do happen.but what happened to ,forgive and forget.the world is a cruel place.its about time you knew that the world does not revolve around you.sorry ,but it has been locked up in my heart for quite a while.and ,i can't let it stay.i can't ignore it and get what i don't deserve.if you really think that paragraph was about you ,think again.things might not always be what it seems.

okayy ,now that thats out.lets talk about something else.damn ,exams are coming and its really stressing.i really think i'm going to fail my geography.it seems like the harder i try to make it understandable ,the harder it gets.and i used to ace that subject.

pfft ,forget that.i really don't feel like blogging now.sorry.

byee.take care people.

with love ,

yani♥

;boo !

2009-09-12T16:46:00.004+08:00

;felt really happy so ,decided on a psychotic picture.

[and yes ,it is in the toilet.but then again ,who cares ?]

boo !

funny thing happened yesterday and yeah ,i simply love scaring people out of their wits.why come to that conclusion ?well ,it started out years ago..

was still at the old house and decided to scare my younger sister by taking her elmo and making it 'talk' and 'fly' but obviously ,i was behind it.she fell for it and was screaming as if i was a serial killer.oh gawd ,it was so eff-ing funny[:

yesterday was fun too.it was around my bedtime and to run away from my mum ,i hid behind my bedroom door.the sibling that was 3 years earlier than me went into the room without realising that i was standing behind the door ,waiting.she turned around and i think if she were to have asthma ,she would have gotten an asthma attack.a long string of vulgarities was passed down towards me along with a quick smack on my head that caused a temporary headache.had stomach cramp along with her on the floor laughing like some madcow.

today is a special day for me because its the 12th.

just for extra facts ;i ain't no sadist.i just enjoy giving people some suspense.

raya in one week's time.was cleaning the house like crazy until now ,i guess.the worse that happened was that i was the only one among my sisters that had to run all over the house to help my parents.my mum was totally freaking out just now because i didn't do what i was supposed to properly]:

kayy ,all smiles [:

got to do the project and study and do homework now.byee [:

love my sayang♥

with love ,
yani

11monthsof

psychoticness♥ ;

;ouch ,scalded my knee

2009-09-11T13:13:00.003+08:00

heyy",

had training yesterday.was discussing on when the netball camp should be and they chose for it to be on the 23 to the 25th of november which means i will get sabo-ed along with hannah on that last day.hurt my left knee.was doing NorthSouthEastWest and every single time the ball dropped ,had to do 10 pushups.can't really remember how many we did but i remembered that every single time we had to do that ,i had to do it in the sun.which caused my knee to get scalded.which really hurt.was really angry and sad and was in total anguish.

anyways ,played court game after that.but ,i didn't play the first quarter because i couldn't really move my legs and couldn't jump and yeah.played the second quarter after convincing coach that i could walk ,and run although my legs were not straight.played GS with Ida as my GA and got somehow scolded by coach because we ,the sec 2s didn't want to pass the ball to the sec 1s.unfortunately ,we wanted to but ,they didn't go out from their hiding place and said ,boo !like i did[:

then ,me and florence led the team for cool down and carried the pole.crushed my leg with the pole doing so.changed and ,went to the bus stop to take the us to the interchange.i know ,we're lazy people.went to cheers and bought water for break fast.reached home at around 650 smthg.speed bathed and changed and combed my hair in time for buka.then blah blah blah ,went to sleep at 930 originally but woke up loads of time.

and ,here i am today !

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

;those bittersweet moments.

2009-09-08T10:24:00.004+08:00

heyy ,

am kind of speechless today so i don't really feel like doing anything.woke up at ard 915 and went to parents' room and took the handphone away and played a game.i do not understand what i'm saying so ,yeah.

ate very little yesterday for break fast due to the stooopid blackout that occured in my house that scared me because i am partly afraid of the dark.i know ,pathetic me.

lets flashback to what had happened earlier that day.

woke up at ard 715 to get ready for school.walked to the interchange at about ,845 and 18-ed to bedok.reached school at about 935 and waited at the volleyball court with hannah and mistika and sham for miss shanti.

when she finally came ,we went up to class along with 1/4 of the rest of the class and started studying history.some people came along in between the class but the latest was ,ali.sabo-ed atikah and hannah when asked to choose someone to stand or/and answer the questions miss shanti asked.made atikah stand and hannah ,answer.class finished ,went to somehow study.flashbacked about the past on the way home and enjoyed it alot because i went through that much to get what i wanted.reached home at 430 and did some stuffs following which i buka-ed.

after praying ,had to clean up the table and ate some weird nice tasting thing.then ,i did art on the floor of my bedroom.continued doing art until halfway through and watched tv for a while.then ,slept.

woke up at 4 just now for sahur and again ,didn't really eat much.

things going on between 4 and 6.slept back at 630 ,woke up at 915 ,did what i did in the beginning of the post.and ,here i am.

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

;i'm lost and confused

2009-09-06T14:23:00.003+08:00

kayy ,wait.

first of all ,short post.

secondly ,someone explain to me whats going on cause i feel like i'm in paris and nobody knows how to speak my language.i really need some explanations.i'm freaking hell confused.

and ,today's post will be all about me being confused until i get my answers.

have to go back to school tomorrow for history lessons.haven't finished the essay thats supposed to be handed up tomorrow.crap.have to do two projects tomorrow at bila's.

i am utterly confused.i am lost.

byee ,i guess ?take care.

with love ,

a very confused yani

;you're my dearest sweetheart

2009-09-05T13:05:00.002+08:00

hmm...things have been kind of chaotic yesterday.someone had to sing for the class and i was the centre of attention even though i was sitting down with the class.sad ,i was really feeling stumped.didn't mean to be so mean ,but feelings were feelings.you can't stop someone from loving you just because.you can't ask someone to love you back just because you love him/her.its not fair.but ,somehow things worked out throughout the day and i managed to put myself back together again.

just remembered ,have art and melayu to do.hmm... ,melayu due this monday and we're supposed to write a factual essay.i suck at facts.why can't we do something narrative where my imagination can go wild.oh well.just my luck.

went to geylang bazaar last night and bought a pretty butterfly for my scarf.bought an LG phone for kakak who wasn't even there and i had to wait.i have to keep on waiting for the phone i want.lets hope someone keeps her promise.unlike the previous yerars where she said i only had to pass my psle to get a new phone but i didn't.ended up having to wreck my old phone for a new one.which was second hand.which wasn't my choice/only had to choose it because that was the only nice one that was cheap enough.hah.

anyways ,woke up really late just now.due to the fatigue caused by walking at the bazaar.should have ate more during sahur.am so hungry.and only half of the day have passed.

got to do some MORE important stuff.

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

;results finally in

2009-09-03T16:20:00.004+08:00

;finally a picture i can call my own[i did write and draw all that]

okayy ,the long-awaited results are finally in.there's tears and cheers and disputes over marks of course.

lets see ,for english ;58/100
malay ;70/100
maths ;91.1/100
science ;70/100
geog ;53/100
history ;70/100
lit ;72/100
art ;63/100
home ec ;86/100

note to self ;study before all tests/exams and make sure you do your best.

i can't really believe that i got 91 for maths cause it's usually a c5 or c6.geog ,you can blame mr leng for it.the HOD changed our geog teacher and look at what have happened.almost the whole class just pass that subject.english ,you can't really blame us.we are singapreans.so ,the singlish comes quite fast in our vicious minds before british english.i just need to buck up for geog and english.the rest ,maintain or/and go higher.i got to thank mr wong though for teaching the maths stuff and helping me.although mr chong ,also deserve some recommendation for teaching the class for quite a while too.

the day started out quite right i think except for the fact that kakak was wasting my and her time in the morning ,causing me to rush a little more.unlike her ,i prefer to be punctual and sometimes super early.am suppossed to be at netball training with the others but i can't.had to send my adik to tuition and make sure that nothing happens to her[not that i want anything to ].in the end , i CMI-ed and had to go home and finish my homework.tired to the max.i really want to go to school.i want to go out aain.i want the sun burning my skin.i want the wind blowing through my hair.i want my sayangs.

so ,yeah.would really like to sleep for a while before buka comes.slept kinda late last night so ,am really tired today.was yawning umpteen times in class just now.

byee.take care.

with love ,
yani

;save me ]:

2009-09-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

heyy ,just can't figure things out today.i'm going insane.got over my fear of cats in mere minutes during reccess which was almost freaky and coloured my artwork nicer than justin's.AND ,i was obsessed with the cats.i want browniee]:he's so cute.the face so small and he's so brown and he has the most gorgeous blue eyes.EVER.i need him here.

was suppossed to be doing reseach but i couldn't find it in malay and it was so hard to translate to malay from the english language.should really buck up on my melayu.

had a rough day today ,was stupid for a second and shed a tear or two which was almost immediately wiped away.was silent all the way to the jamiyah home.when i finally reached there ,i was super quiet i thought i was breaking my own record of keeping quiet.well ,was going crazy with beelaaa raking the leaves.took pictures :D

i want to sleep now.tired rdy.

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

;you're all i ever think about

2009-09-01T12:56:00.003+08:00

first of ;

Happy Teachers' Day to all beloved teachers",

had a partially great day at school yesterday.went to school as per usual and sat at the parade square when mr hafiz came.sang the national anthem and read the pledge.the dreaded ACES came.everybody was asking me if i remembered it but they all forgot that i didn't come last year on the teachers' day celebration because i was at my cousin's funeral ,crying my heart out.

anyway ,did the stupid dance[if it is even called one] and went back to class for half a period of science.did some stuff in the theory workbook but slacked a lot during maths.pathetic teacher got so angry because we didn't excactly wanted to hear him blabber abot how we get into uni and everything.i mean ,almost all of the teachers do that.they repeat the same thing over and over again.

after maths ,concert !!!it was fun with aqil and naufal as emcees.spontaneous people make the best emcees ever:Dsat through the whole concert with my fullest attention ,laughing only when needed.blahblahblah.concert done.gave sabrina her present went back class ,did cards for all teachers teaching us ,gave miss tan her board[card] and did another one for her.went to mr suhairi's office and gave him his board[card] and went to the bench.went to the hall.went to t1 with ika and sham.went back home.went out to bedok inter.waited for the rest and waited for an additional half an hour for rasyid.buka-ed in the bus.went off.looked for a masjid while the others go eat first.bila ,hannah ,sham and me walked a long way looking for a masjid.finally found it ,went to take air sembahyang and prayed.met ammarah after finished solat-ing.went to bedok corner to eat instead.

after finished eating ,went to cold storage to look for a baby bottle for the kittens currently at bila's place.

went back.reached home ,changed ,slept.

woke up late just now:D

byee.see most of you tmrw",

with love ,

yani

;the bad new days

2009-08-29T11:26:00.004+08:00

;an irony why we spend hundreds for them

hey ,sorry for like not been posting for the past few days or so.have been really busy with the stuff at home and the problems in school.

lets see if i can still remember what happened for the past week ,i think.

right ,on monday school was obviously as per normal except for the fact that everyone was fasting.unfortunate for me thoughthat i have to miss the first week of puasa.stooopid menses.moving on ,went to the swimming pool with the rest of the class but could not do anything except for walk around the benches/seats or whatever you call them for aproximately 5 times.the councillors plus ali and rizan went off halfway through the 'lesson' and went back to school to rehearse for their hoedown throwdown.and that leaves ,ika ,hannah and me.watched the others swim in agony.they were all slacking and we can't even do that properly cause there was nothing fun to do.unless you counted homework ,which was a real bummer cause i didn't really know how to do it.after we got released ,the three of us 67-ed to tp interchange to buy the stuff needed for home ec practical which was to happen two days from that monday.bought huge green studs and somehow forced hannah to buy a similar one ,except hers in purple.18-ed home and changed and everything.watched my family buka puasa and ate with them soon after that.washed all the plates and forks and spoons and cups and jugs and yeah.practically cleared the whole table.

next day ,went for science practical for the observation test on effects on heat.was quite easy until i half-scalded my hand due to the boiling water that was measured at 86degreecelsius.went for geog test which was absolutely pathetic cause i didn't really study for it.plus ,you have to admit.the paper was hard.then ,went to sit downstairs to read the magazine passed out by myself.got real jealous and then angry.kayy ,fine i was always angry and jealous but not to that extreme.pissed off for that whole day.oh ,yeah.was super thirsty after training.

then ,wednesday came.home ec practical !!!met hannah early in the morning but she was late so ,i was kind of late for school too.before reaching school ,went to fairprice near the bedok interchange there to buy margarine.climbed into class and sat down in my place ,again feeling angry and jealous.didn't really feel like talking to anyone except for beelaaBESIBUTTS.skip the rest of the day and then practical.passed my practical and cooked rice for the first time ,successfully:D

getting lazy here so ,yeah.

thursday was almost the same with tuesday except for i was really fasting.blahblahblah.made it in time after training for buka by just 10 minutes.got scolded by ibu ,can't go training next weekDD:

friday ,painted teachers' day banner after school and got myself painted instead.pfft.went for tuition after buka and somehow quarrelled with nazri.met hidayat only after tuition and was all over his plush stitch.it was so cute>.<

here i am today.feeling stumped.

bye.take care people",

with love ,

yani

new day ,new things ;

2009-08-17T20:01:00.003+08:00

yesterday was like any normal day starting with science",sat next to beelaaaBESIBUTTS and enjoyed the company of pelangi whose IQ seems to have been severely cut off today.

he was so hyper during maths enjoying watching bila and me struggling doing the graph look like a graph instead of a triangle.he was practically singing songs with the wrong lyrics in them and just randomly laughing.psycho maniac.

hah ,i should say that for myself.i was screaming 'STARFISH REALLY LOVES YOU !!' to ika ,bila ,hannah ,ali ,sham and rizan.and ,for that i have to apologize for irritating you people.

going on ,

PASSED MY SWIMMNG TEST :DD

today was fine except for the part that pelangi didn't come because he had his medical check-up.i was actually fine with it but ,yeah.

was a good girl and did all my homework in time for the lessons:D even finished math before going for reccess.i shared beelaaa's tom yum with her during reccess cause she said she couldn't finish it up.in the end ,i finished her food.hah.

had history after reccess and got the test paper back.got 14/20 for it.it was kind of fun doing corrections for the test paper.

skipped netball because i have to finish my coursework and babysit my sister at home.really wanted to go but yeah.it was really tiring waiting or the bus to go home.now that i am home ,i need to finish my coursework.ciao peeps.

supposed to do home ec coursework.so ,here i go !

byee.take care.

with love ,

yani

p.s ;we did have the food-tasting thing yesterday .ate the chocolate syrup like crazy:D

burning sun and thunderclouds ;

2009-08-16T17:05:00.007+08:00

life ,for a week ;

the past whole week have been real busy due to my whole week absence the week before.causing more homework for me(grumbles)...

when i came back to school on tuesday ,the whole class was already punished and had to walk back and forth the class and science lab.what made things worse was the fact that some of us had leg injuries.bila and me ;just recorvering from our illnesses.

had pythagoras theorem test on that day after school that day.really thoght i was going to fail that stooopid thing.went for training ,....blah blah blah ....

went to jamiyah home for the aged on wednesday where we had to layan the people there.some were fun ,but some were really scary.bila and me got shoo-ed away by one of the dudes there.so ,yeah.

MOVING ON

got back the maths test on thursday.squeezed bila's hand till both of our hands turned white and in the end ,both of us got 17/20 -.-'' all the effort for nothing.

had a food-tasting lesson during english and unfortunately the BIG little cafe was patnered with the chips corner.it wasn't really a turnoff for bila and me because we were starving and was eating non-stop.me ,attacking the chocolates.bila ,attacking the prawn crackers.sherman was just sitting at the side eating like a normal person.and myron ,missing out on all the food cause he ran off to mr suhairi's room/office.we also took some food from shi hau's group cause their food was so much more appetizing.initially ,bila wanted to stop eating but i was like 'bila ,no.i'm still hungry.this is my breakfast ,lunch and dinner.'then ,we laughed.hah.

we're going to do another food-tasting session tomorrow!!!!going to stuff our mouths with loads of chocolates and sweet stuffs...hehehe.

lets just go on to today.

woke up at 605 just now and was sent to the bedok inter by ibu and ayah.had to go to kallang netball court because of some CIP thing.so ,yeah.met ika ,florence and bila at the inter and waited for hannah.by the time she came ,florence counted to five and threw her shoebag at hannah.didn't expect that to happen so ,we laughed our asses off.

196-ed to the court and realised we were the first people to reachthere.the gate was still locked.instead ,went to macs to eat a proper breakfast.i'm going to grow fat.

met everybody else.yadda yadda.finally ,went inside the court changed to this fitting shirt that we were supposed to wear.it was dark blue.we just had to live with it.it was a lady's cut shirt anws.so ,yeah.

sat in the hot ,hot sun for 20 minutes and then ,nice cool shade.it was super fun lah of course.got to eat nasi lemak for lunch which was nice.

blahblahblah ,finish.went to macs.wait for ibu and ayah again.got into the car ,went to suntec ,ate donuts ,went home.can't really remember what happened in the car on the way home because i was sleeping throughout the whole ride.

did the sec three matching excersise online just now and here i am.

byee peepos.take care.

with love ,

yani

shaky but steady start ;

2009-08-10T13:57:00.004+08:00

hello people !

yesterday was yesterday but it wasn't any normal yesterday because it was a yesterday.[i'm speechless ,bear with my nonsense]

was at orchard road yesterday to check out the new mall ,ion.it was huge and confusing with so many 'secret passageways'.

then ,yeah.spent seven hours outside before going back home and watched singapore idol.which was heart warming due to the laughs and smiles it brought to me ",was eating the donuts ibu bought at ion.had to wait freaking half an hour to buy those dear donuts there.my fault for wanting to eat at dunkin' donuts so much.hah.

forgot to mention that effendi was in the malay paper on saturday.he ws in the parade yesterday too.wanted to msg him but was too lazy to even grab my phone from my bed.so ,yeah.sorry diddy.hope you had fun ,

slept late yesterday because i was too hyper jumping around in the house like a crazy rabbit.hah ,it ws so fun running/jumping/skipping/crawling all over the house:]

had a weird dream last night because i was in someone's house but i knew that person very well.at the same time ,i don't know that person.i didn't like it.

i seriously need a new phone.mine fell again and the stooopid connection got lost again.lets cry for it.

didn't really talk to anyone the whole of yesterday because i was feeling confused.i don't understand anything happening yesterday but i didn't mind it yesterday.all i knew was that i was getting frustrated over everything yesterday and i couldn't stop being frustrated.

i am still confused and i can't wait to go to school tomorrow.really cannot wait for it.even woke up at 510 just now ,because i thought there was school just now :]

byee ,take care peepos",

with love ,

yani

;a forgotten memory.

2009-08-08T12:04:00.009+08:00

something i'll never get ;

someone help me.

i really am going to lose the things that i don't want to and i'm stressing out.shit ;need to give a definite answer in about 45 minutes time.i need an answer but ,if i answer wrongly ,byebye sayang(s).am not going to live a proper life this way.

got so used to the life with people surrounding me ,i'm not sure i can stand alone anymore.you know what sucks most ?people ,at times when youre in a mood for talking so much nobody wants to msg you and share the joy.but ,when you're sad and moody and frustrated ,people just have to add oil to fire and make a mountain out of a molehill don't they ?

it's not fair that i have to leace my life hanging on a thread while i was only trying to entertain myself.it's like robin hood being wanted for stealing from the rich and giving to the poor.

i guess i was right when i said people are angry with me yesterday.yesterday ,things was so shaky i felt i was going to fall off a cliff.woke up this morning and realised i'm falling through the big ,black dark bottomless pit.

woke up with my stomach in my chest and my heart in my throat.it suck to have to choose sides.it suck to have to choose between something soo precious and something so dear.its like asking you to choose between your life an your loved ones life to sacrifice.

i'm in this stooopid cave of dilemmas that i cannot get out from until i learn how to take care of myself.it not fair.i hate dilemmas.i hate myself.i hate my life.i hate myself.i hate myself.i hate myself.

if this all falls apart ,nothing will make me forget all the memories we had.good or bad.

i'm sorry.

byee.

with love for everybody except for myself ,
yani

i hate red ;

the world in my hands ?i beg to differ .

2009-08-07T09:12:00.000+08:00

is it time to bury the past ?

hah ,had the mood for doing what i did.but yeah.i got so pissed off yesterday but luckily hanis was texting me almost the whole day which really cheered me up.some people just try to take advantage of time do they ?only three days not at school[excluding today] and already i' m beginning to lose loads of stuff.if you know what i'm talking about.

felt that everybody was angry with me yesterday and i don't know why.plus ,my little irritating niece and nepheew are coming over for a sleepover through this weekend.i'll die.can't believe i missed the national day celebration at school today so ,i'm expressing everything i'm feeling like this.right now.

just when i thought yesterday was the perfect day because i don't hve a fever anymore and hanis was cheering me up the whole day by bearing my boredism.watched rachael ray yesterday and for the first time ever i actually didn't get scolded for watching teevee the whole day which is probably a good thing right ?wrong.evrybody is just out to irritate me yesterday.one after another the long ,sad ,draggy naggings came along.i feel like the psychiatrist everybody never had.or maybe the confession person thingy.

cant believe paula abdul is out of american idol.sad seyy.

i feel so angry.angry with myself.angry with my mc.angry with the mountainload of homework that i'm only getting today.i am going to slave through the weekend with the little monsters crying and whining all the time while i try to complete the homework that i don't think i will understand.serious multitasking coming ahead.i won't have time for anybody else:[

i am....speechless.i've talked myself out of my angriness but now ,i'm sad.

i am really clueless about self.i need a vacation.but ,i need school.i need a school vacation without having to get away from school like the past four days or so.and .....i don't make sense.

i miss the affections and love at school.i miss the HUGE hugs after school.

i need life to get back together.someone ,get me a needle and thread.i need to sew my life back together again.i need to make everything click.i need to sew back the bleeding heart that i've caused.i need to pull myself together.and ,i need to stop saying 'i need to ' ,its a must to.not literally of course.

this "not so chirpy anymore " girl is gone.

byee.miss school.miss my sayangs;[

with love ,

yani

injustice ;

2009-08-06T11:11:00.000+08:00

love ;the oxygen that keeps me alive",

slept at 7.19 last night due to the drowsiness caused by the stooopid medicine i ate.left my conversation with my loved one hanging.hope you're not angry about that.sorry:[

just woke up about half an hour ago [done bathing ,please and thank you].and am feeling as ravenous as ever.hah ,had to look through the dictionary to make sure that i spelt it correctly.hmm..i feel so pathetic.

funny how i woke up with an aching stomach and want to eat so much ,but when oresented with food ,i don't feel like eating anymore.sheesh ,i miss netball so much.i miss the sun burning on my skin like nobdy's business.i miss the haoticness of coach whenever we[or i] make a mistake in court.i miss running to the watercooler every water break there was in between the trainings.i missed shooting.in short ;i miss school.i'm not even sick anymore.i wanted to go to school tomorrow but when i voiced out my opinion and bragging about how well i am already ,i got a big definite NO.

if i stay at home any longer i can very well go to a mental hospital with depression.i am lagging behind the whole class in school.i almost feel stupid.bila told me that thers no lessons tomorrow and school ends at 10.that means i wont really be affecting the whole school right ?

wonder whats happening in class right now.shit ,just remembered that the malay assingnment yesterday didn't get sent and cikgu is going to kill me for it.stoopid internet got interfered by the renovation works around the neighbourhood.everybody's busy in school.i don't have anybody to talk to except for bila but i think she's busy with the stuff she's doing.the reason why i don't really enjoy my mcs.

first ,i am sick and i have to eat the wretched medicine.

second ,i cant go to school and have to miss out on a lot of things.

third ,i don't have anything to do.

fourth ,i can't meet anyone.

fifth ,i tend to get haywire quickly.

finally ,I HATE MCs !!!:[

kayy ,my stomach's really grumbling.have to eat before my gastric comes back.

byee.

with love ,
yani

scream your heart out ;

2009-08-05T11:22:00.001+08:00

second day of staying at home and i already feel proud of myself for making it through one day with almostnothing to do",

anyhow ,msged bila just now to realise that she is on mc too.coming back next wednesday(12august2009).am going to sit alone in class on tuesday unless someone wants to sit with me ,which is very unlikely because i would probabl just recovered from my illness and nobody would want to get contracted with it.currently ,waiting for my malay paper to be sent successfully so that i can see my sucky marks because i really don't know what to answer for the paper.have to admit that it was kind of hard to do because i don't have my peribahasa list with me and theres no one to help me with it.woke up just now with an aching head that was almost unbearable ,couldn't get out of bed until about three hours later.stooopid medicine made my head feel a whole lot worse .i really really REALLY want to go to school.miss everybody:[

crap ,i think i hurt my shoulder sleeping last night cause t hurts to the maximum it can and i can't move it.i am such an unfortunate soul.why must i get sick ?why must adik infect me with her disgusting germs ?if i wasn't infected by her , i would probably have been at sch with bila not sick.hmm... , why can't i just go to school but get isolated or something ?

oh ,ya everybody was so sweet yesterday asking me if i was okayy ,which i was ,big THANK YOU to all of you people",i know i missed alot of stufff at sch but yeah ,thats what you get when you don't know how to take care of yourself.

freaking laptop working so slow my assignment haven't even finish loading yet.ahh!!!!!

stoopidly frustrated with myself today(and every other day).

tsk tsk ,nothing on teevee for me to watch

have fun at school people",byee.

with love ,

yani

silent cries ;

2009-08-04T05:50:00.000+08:00

Let's start with yesterday where i had a raging fever of 38.7 and had to go to the sick bay for the whole day until i asked mr suhairi whether i could go back to class since my fever subsided.sat in class beside bila(not allowing her to touch or come near me)so ,yeah.went with the class to the bedok swimming complex but i couldn't swim because of my fever.which was a letdown seeing that i really wanted to swim.anws ,went home and ate with ibu only to realise that i was supposed to go to the doctor with her after i ate.then ,went to the doctor's and had my temperature checked which was at 37.5 and had the WHOLE WEEK on mc.which was unbelieveable because i was really looking forward to seeing everybody at school and sitting there in the chair beside bila.
therefore ,i woke up late just now and the first thing i did after bathing was eat my medicine.it was so sucky sitting at home ,so i decided to blog about how boring the day have been.
it's so much more stressing sitting down at home then at school.hmm...i really miss everyone.plus ,i hope that i can go to school this friday.the doctor only gave five days of mc in case i'm still not well on thursday.
bila ;i'm so sorry i can't listen to your freky and weird stories.or even ,talk to you and accompany you in class.
ika ;sorry i can't cook with you tmrw.
i feel like dying.someone take me away from this misery.i'm not even sick anymore.it's not fair.well , bye for now.take care people ,don't be like me.you'll regret it.

with love ,
yani

randomly found pictures previously ",

2009-08-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

back again with some pictures in hand found randomly just before this.so ,yeah.love it or hate it.accept it or reject it.its your choice.just don't discriminate me ;

well ,finally i'm gone.byee.

with love ,

yaniiee

just when you think things will turn for the better...

2009-08-01T15:52:00.000+08:00

hello !!
went for tuition yesterday night and found out that ika is angry with me.i totally couldn't find her after school and thought that the plan of me following her to see miss tan was cancelled.apparently ,i was wrong.after i came back to school ,she was like ignoring me.i mean ,how the hell was i supposed to know right ?so ,yeah a humongous SORRY to Siti Atikah Bte Nordin.you really don't know how sorry i am.
Anyways ,back to the main point ,i woke up super late today and actually thought i was late for school.hah.hey ,guess what ?it's august !!!!!only three more months to my birthday.
i miss everybody so much.i know ,i know its only been one day but when it comes to me ,every second counts.
oh shit ,just realised i have oral this wednesday.crap ,i won't know what to say.oh ,ya the class photos and cca photos are out !!!!bought all of the class photos and two of the netball photos.have to remember to bring fifteen bucks to school on monday or smthg.
crap ,no money for school.things just can't get any worse can it ?haa....
i seriously need to save money.ahh ,so many things to save money for.i feel like crying ,sad case.
wait ,what am i talking about ?i'm sure things will get better soon(just as soon as ika forgives me)
well ,lets beg for ika's apology.
byee.have fun enjoying your weekend people",

with love and apologies ,
yaniiee

chaotic-ness

2009-07-31T13:28:00.000+08:00

hey ,sorry for the looong M.I.A but yeah ,you can go ahead and blame the stooopid internet connection at home.so ,yeah.
First things first ;
HAPPY BELATED TO ATIKAH ,FLORENCE and HAZIQ !!!!!
Sorry for not giving presents bt what do you expect ?i'm currently freaking hell broke.sorry.will make it up to all of you guys someday.
am now at bila's place ,using her TV/computer to update this blog of mine and to eat cup noodles ",
plus ,she's late for her investiture at school but has a very GOOD reason for it :DD(shall not reveal it though)
so ,hell yeah.have to rush back to school ,grab my bag and maybe stay there for a while before running back like a madcow home.byee ,

with love ,
yaniiee

BILA LOVES ME
! ;

hahas

2009-07-13T20:59:00.001+08:00

ika ,ika.funny seyy.gambar besarbesar
with love ,
yaniiee

you blow my heart away ..

2009-07-06T20:24:00.000+08:00

heyoooohs !

did ipw

haha , tk menjadi seyy jahit

haha ! went to eat

skatee . lalala

kayy chiaoo

-ikaa -

( yanie will repost , i guess ? )

laughs ,laughs ,and more laughs ",

2009-07-02T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hello to all!lets see ,seeing to that i missed yesterday's update.let's try to remember what happened.hmm .......,shoot.i almost cannot remember what happened yesterday except for that i went out last night for my dinner.felt sick.but made it through the whole night.WITHOUT vomiting.

Then , today came.almost didn't want to wake up just now.overslept until 5.35am.was supposed to wake up at 5.10 but since nobody was awake then ,i continued sleeping.was almost late for school.but ,the day turned out okayy.had a 'confession' period during music.and cikgu didn't come in for malay.almost as if everything was falling to place just now.bila and me were feeling a little bit mischiveous just now ,so we donated 50cents and a bookmark(we recieved) to them.couldn't stop laughing at our silliness.hahas.

after school ,went to the most favouritest bench at school to meet up with the rest.after meeting them.poof!went home.haha.sorry random.okayy ,went home and then read my currently favourite book ,"reemember me" that dexter kep on saying is horny.but pfftt ,forget it.i don't really care.can't say that i'm too happy about tomorrow because i'm freaking tired.well , thats life these days.its only the first week and i'm this tired.perfect huh ?

with love ,

yani

enjoying life as it is ,

2009-06-30T20:10:00.000+08:00

Well , yesterday was the first day of school and(naturally) i had to wake up bright and early for school.staggered to school and met the whole lot of teachers at the carpark ,''welcoming'' the students comeback with questions such as 'have you travelled overseas?'.stupid H1N1.trouble people's lives only.went to class and socialised with those peeps of mine whom i haven't seen for one month.had to take my temperature after that and my day started.had cme for the first lesson ,which consisted of loads of laughs.moving on ,skipped science due to health check up",

anyways ,when geography came ,the funny part came too.the geog cher practicaly ripped his pants while trying to squeeze his way in between the whiteboard and shi hau.unfortunately , only bila and me saw the unfateful incident.so ,we looked like stpid idiots laughing in class when no one else was.now , i can never look at him seriously anymore.what a bad start for him too.it was like his first day.tsk,tsk.

had ccm,learnt how to give directions in mandarin.blahblahblah.had SWIMMING after that in which i did not go into the pool due to reasons.instead i just helped florence and bila.that was how first day life was.tiring

FULLSTOP.

with love ,

yani

2009-06-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello !
This is Bilaaa , on behalf of th lovely Yani .
Heh . So , something went wrong with her blog , and im here to update for her ! :D
This is what she posted th past few days . Enjoy .

20/6/09 [Saturday]
After slacking all these YEARS ,finally got off my butt.so ,here i am.

23/06/09[Tuesday]

Had training for two days in a row.both ,in which i got scolded.pathetic , pathetic.boring lah ,

Anyways ,had fun AFTER training just now.expected the springfieldnians to come ,but they didn't.WHOOP-DEEDOO!(i guess...tsktsk).had loads of court games just now.which was when i got "scolded".umpired the game instead ,

Finally ,training finished.phew ,so hot today.perspire like crazy.changed from my disgustingly wet tee-shirt to my spare shirt.went to the interchange with the rest.unfortunately ,bila and ika couldn't stand their tiredness and took a bus.They missed loads of stuff our dear FLORENCE said throughout the whole way.should really listen to her hilarious jokes ,

Then ,we bus-ed to the playground at my place and camwhored.not really camwhored but yeah,girls have to do what girls have to do",

Forgot to take my other slipper from bila on the way back and had to run back to her ,screaming.(laughs).

At least ,i got my slipper back.

with love ,
yani

26/06/09[Friday]

Let's see what had happened for the past two days... ,

Well ,on wednesday i got woken up so early in the morning(7:40).And guess what ,it was only to follow my kakak to the hospital so that she can EXTRACT her wisdom tooth(OUCH!).spent almost the whole day there ,freaking boring.went to the hospital about nine-thirthy to go to the dentist over there.waited for her turn seemed like an eternity..,she had to take an x-ray of the freaking tooth and had to wait again then finally she went back inside the dentist room to check the tooth.about 15 minutes later ,the nurse came out with her and told her that she needed to go for a surgery and that ,ibu(mum) had to be there to sign some forms.more of like a terms and conditions form... ,tsktsk.stomach was really grumbling by that time.i mean who wouldn't be ?waited for ibu for about half an hour outside the pharmacy.when she arrived ,after the check up to see whether she has a fever or not(fortunately not).went to the day surgery room to sign the whole lot of forms that there was to.and finally ate lunch.finally went to the place where she was to have her surgery.at last.waited for at least one and a half hours until kakak got back to the waiting lounge ,surprised me by shaking her tooth in the container.kayy,kayy let's cut the story short.she finally extracted her tooth and got the medicine.went home.fullstop.

the next day ,went out with my peeps to watch a movie at century square.wanted to watch drag me to hell but instead we wwatched land of the lost.had loads of laughs at the show.finally ,after about two hours the show finished.went to the toilet to betulkan my tudung.went merayap-ing at tampines one for a while and went home.enjoyed my day out and had loads of fun",

bringing the inner-child of me now ,watching barney.hehes.love ya'all!

with love ,

yani

Okayy , done . Have Fun . Byee . ",